Rest happens when I live in THIS moment and refuse to worry about the ‘not yet’ ones. The best preparation for whatever is ahead is to experience Him here in this moment; by giving Him the little ounce of trust and faith that I have right now. When I let go and follow His moves in THIS moment, on THIS current dance floor, it opens up the way for the best possible future dance.
I’ve been a sucker this week for letting “future dance” worries steal the current dance moves and twirls. It has been a bit chaotic in my head and heart. I forgot gratitude and everything else I thought I had. I fumbled and fell. But I am rising again! I find Him in the chaos and muddled thoughts. He comes faithfully and I allow myself to feel His presence as He wraps His arms around me when I come to my senses and just call and acknowledge His nearness; acknowledge that He is never far, He is always here, even when I don’t feel it.
Abandonment is only a feeling—never a reality for His kids. Tonight, I’m glad to be His kid. I’m glad He’s right here and won’t leave me alone. Ever. I’m glad it’s only this moment He’s asking me to do. There’s abundance for today. And it will be there for tomorrow as well.
This is definitely a morphing season I am in. My kiddos delight and thrill every time their little wormies crawl up the side of the butterfly house, shed their skin and hide away in their chrysalis. Their excitement mounts. They check it every day to see if they can see any change. They cheer when the chrysalis turns black and is about to hatch. And oh my goodness! You should hear their delight every time their little wormy friend emerges all wet and crumpled. Unrecognizable as a caterpillar and still not recognizable as a beautiful winged creature either because he has to wait for his wings to unfold and dry. I don’t know which delights me more—watching their delight, or the awe of seeing the miracle of the butterfly so completely changed and perfect before my eyes.
Maybe it is a morphing season for you as well. Be patient. Wait it out. Stay in the moment. And trust the process. You got this! Because He’s got you.
by Vera Smoker
Hi there! I am Vera, blessed wife of one and mom to three wonderful little people who make my world go round. I am an unashamed lover of Jesus, passionate about authentic relationships rooted within the identity that comes first from my relationship with Him. I’m a lover of good books, fat journals, sunsets and sunrises, long quiet country walks, and time with my family around campfires or on our front porch. Growth and mentorship are high on the list of values for me and I always thrill when I get to celebrate the wonderful journey of growth and discovery with others. The Hubs and I both love hosting so come relax with us sometime and we will chat the time away and connect over a good cup of coffee or chai!
Look at Me Flash Cards
Look at Me Flash Cards include eight sets of eight flash cards with each set focusing on an area of the body. With a set for each body, ears, eyes, feet, hands, heart, mind, and mouth words of life are being spoken over each area not only for their physical wellbeing, but their spiritual health and strengthening forever.
The turkey has been demolished. The yummy delicious dishes that took time to make are now mostly devoured and declared to be good. Naps and sleep that were forgone in order to make the dishes in between juggling baby and real life are forgotten in the warmth of memories made around the food. Hearts are full and grateful here. It was a Thanksgiving to remember.
This morning was a mix of play and work, cloudy faces and happy faces. In the middle of folding Sunday and Monday’s laundry with the little tots I wondered, ‘what did Eve struggle with as a Mom?’ The first mom ever. No other moms before her or around her to compare herself with. No endless approaches to sort through. No moms saying you ‘should’ this or that. She was the first. Was she a crunchy perfect organic mom? Or was she okay with peanut butter and jelly sandwich days for her boys? Did she struggle to respond instead of react? Did she get tired of telling her kids for the 99th time to ‘chew with your mouth closed’? Or did she just let that one slide? Did she struggle to make the choice to stay present some days? Did she ever snap and tell Adam, ‘I need a break?’
I never wanted kids. I wanted a career, I wanted to climb the corporate ladder. I wanted to keep going back to school for higher degrees. We were married six months when we found out we were expecting our first child. At the time I was working in a doctor’s office and I asked my co-worker to administer a pregnancy test. She smiled and gave me a big hug and said ‘congratulations, it’s positive.’ I felt like my whole world crumbled. I held back my tears in front of my co-worker, as I did not want her to think I was a terrible person for not being excited about this news. But I definitely was not excited. In fact, I would even say that I was in denial. I was a little numb…