An early morning walk in the light mist and rain this morning was not such a bad idea after all! Why don’t I do this more often? Third trimester sleep can be a real struggle for me, but through it, I am learning. One of the biggest and hardest lessons I am learning is that of taking charge of my thoughts and commanding my mind in those uncomfortable waking moments of the night. This has made the biggest impact on how my mornings will begin.
I have had a lot of good nights…and a lot of challenging nights lately it seems. Sometimes I forget even the basic things that might help in the middle of the night as I am just plain irritated about another moment of restless sleep and trying to get comfortable, thinking about how many hours I have left to try to recharge before morning. Last night landed in the restless zone. My husband, Brandon suggested that I play some music to see if that would help. It helped immensely! I still didn’t sleep amazingly, but when I’d wake up there was a song going through my mind to focus on instead of all the negative thoughts. The door was now closed to the barrage of anxiety and fearful thoughts that often try to sneak their way in during the night hours. (Some of them can seem so ridiculously silly once morning light comes, but boy can they seem real in the middle of the night.)
This morning as I walked in the rain, I kept thinking about what a kind Daddy God I have and His thoughts over me. So kind in fact that He COMMANDS His loving kindness towards me. (Psalms 42:8) In the last part of that same verse it says that His songs will be with me in the night.
My receiving of both of these things depends on how well I guard my mind and take charge of what thoughts, etc. I allow in. His thoughts towards me comfort me today…and the fact that He doesn’t put condemnation on me in this learning curve. Instead, He comes in the night watch and in my anxious moments He treats me like He did the disciples. He takes charge, asks me why I’m afraid, and shows me the way through. He is a good, good Father!
Songs for your Nights
“The Lord will command His lovingkindness in the daytime, And in the night His song shall be with me—A prayer to the God of my life.” (Psalm 42:8)
by Vera Smoker
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Identity Statements with Background Music
Over 40 minutes of Scriptural Beliefs and Identity Statements read allowed with soothing background music. Perfect for use when baby is sleeping, playing, during travel, etc.
You aren’t big enough to wreck it in one single day—especially not when you hand all the pieces over to the One who is bigger than the messy minutes of the day. He blends the pieces you give Him together beautifully and adds a silver lining. I. WILL. TRUST. HIM. For myself and for my kiddos. That’s a choice I get to make at the end of every day. And I still choose being a mom.
I’ve been a sucker this week for letting “future dance” worries steal the current dance moves and twirls. It has been a bit chaotic in my head and heart. I forgot gratitude and everything else I thought I had. I fumbled and fell. But I am rising again! I find Him in the chaos and muddled thoughts. He comes faithfully and I allow myself to feel His presence as He wraps His arms around me when I come to my senses and just call and acknowledge His nearness; acknowledge that He is never far, He is always here, even when I don’t feel it.
Was there anyone else out there that was super excited to see the new Mary Poppins movie? Well, if you were like me, you were counting down the days to get to go see this movie. It was supposed to be a “mommy outing”—just some time for me to go out and get some alone time. But…I thought it would be fun to take my oldest son, Judah. There was a fun part in the movie when Mary Poppins was preparing the children for bath time and as the children entered the tub, they “went down the drain” and ended up in a cartoon illustrated ocean with lots of colorful fish and coral. I turned to look at my son to catch his reaction and he was WIDE-EYED with his mouth hanging open in total AWE.