An early morning walk in the light mist and rain this morning was not such a bad idea after all! Why don’t I do this more often? Third trimester sleep can be a real struggle for me, but through it, I am learning. One of the biggest and hardest lessons I am learning is that of taking charge of my thoughts and commanding my mind in those uncomfortable waking moments of the night. This has made the biggest impact on how my mornings will begin.
I have had a lot of good nights…and a lot of challenging nights lately it seems. Sometimes I forget even the basic things that might help in the middle of the night as I am just plain irritated about another moment of restless sleep and trying to get comfortable, thinking about how many hours I have left to try to recharge before morning. Last night landed in the restless zone. My husband, Brandon suggested that I play some music to see if that would help. It helped immensely! I still didn’t sleep amazingly, but when I’d wake up there was a song going through my mind to focus on instead of all the negative thoughts. The door was now closed to the barrage of anxiety and fearful thoughts that often try to sneak their way in during the night hours. (Some of them can seem so ridiculously silly once morning light comes, but boy can they seem real in the middle of the night.)
This morning as I walked in the rain, I kept thinking about what a kind Daddy God I have and His thoughts over me. So kind in fact that He COMMANDS His loving kindness towards me. (Psalms 42:8) In the last part of that same verse it says that His songs will be with me in the night.
My receiving of both of these things depends on how well I guard my mind and take charge of what thoughts, etc. I allow in. His thoughts towards me comfort me today…and the fact that He doesn’t put condemnation on me in this learning curve. Instead, He comes in the night watch and in my anxious moments He treats me like He did the disciples. He takes charge, asks me why I’m afraid, and shows me the way through. He is a good, good Father!
Songs for your Nights
“The Lord will command His lovingkindness in the daytime, And in the night His song shall be with me—A prayer to the God of my life.” (Psalm 42:8)
by Vera Smoker
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Identity Statements with Background Music
Over 40 minutes of Scriptural Beliefs and Identity Statements read allowed with soothing background music. Perfect for use when baby is sleeping, playing, during travel, etc.
In the past, and sometimes still, I can find it difficult to slow down the intake and focus on being established instead of frantically going for more. I’m learning that it’s okay to give myself permission to listen to the same message or read the same chapter over and over again; to learn and re-learn a new habit; to move in peace and let the message or lesson sink deeply into my spirit.
I haven’t always done well with living in touch with the desires inside of me. I haven’t always seen or treated them as gifts. But God is teaching me the beauty of them. The more I learn to lean into and trust the Holy Spirit, the more He’s teaching me the joy and the graceful art of embracing those desires while simultaneously releasing them and going quietly on with what is ‘today’.
I used to think the only things of worth were the big things ‘out there.’ It was difficult, actually, almost impossible for me to find fulfillment and satisfaction in doing the everyday stuff. Now you moms out there realize that so much of mom life is made up of exactly this—normal everyday ordinary stuff. And when I became a mom at 34, I wasn’t prepared for all it would show me. It showed me I hated the normal hidden everyday stuff. It showed me I’d never learned to thrive well in the everyday gears that are so important in the foundation before going out in the bigger world for all the bigger things.